If given the chance, I will be writing and publishing my personal experiences about working in the private sector then eventually int he government, the negative circumstances I was involved and how I was able to get over it, the friendships that bloomed, the chismis, politics involved, the overtime, the travels, my learnings and the knowledge I have now. I want that book to be an inspiration to young professionals like me. I've been working for 7 years now, I cried, I whined, I fell in love, I failed... I hope that it will help you guys (assuming I have an avid reader/pool of fans) out there...

Maybe, someday soon? I hope to get the framework done and hopefully I will try to submit this to someone, somewhere out there.

xoxo,
s.♥

27th on the 17th

I only pray and hope for peace of mind & heart. So I can decide what is right for me. Thank you for another year!

xoxo, s.♥

One Monday Afternoon

I kinda thought of writing again since my last post.. I've been thinking about tons of things as usual. I changed the name of this blog, I've been feeling too crappy since February and workload has been heavier than ever (not that I hate it)...

I lose my temper so easily, I get annoyed by the littlest things and it's quite annoying.

Realizations come by when tough times happen to me.

1. I am turning 27.

F. I am turning 27 in three months and I have'nt got anything under my name aside from my postpaid plan. When people started investing on cars, condominiums, lots...Where was I? Everyone is moving forward, getting married, making a lifelong career and here I am being brat about my life. Who chose this life anyway? YES, I blame myself for this, no one but me. But whoever is reading this (if there's one soul on this planet who comes across this boring blog), start earning. You can enjoy, by that I mean gadgets galore, travelling and more shopping but it isn't bad to earn as early as you can and start investing on things that actually last longer than your mobile phone.

2. I care about people who doesn't give a F about me.

This is so true. I care about the delivery guy who forgot my soda so he needs to go back to KFC and then back to my place. I care about the cashier people at toll gates, when queues are getting longer and the heat is too hot to handle. I care about the janitors of malls and movie houses and I think about those people who work their asses off to make ends meet. I care about them...I think about them... They seem to be the most irrelevant blue collared workers for you but ain't for me. I secretly wished that they earn more than enough for their family.

3. Cutting ties and burning bridges
Two different things:

a. Someone once told me to never burn bridges. I've done it a few times and I quite believe I learned from it. I am not saying that it's right but I learned a whole lot from it. It is not easy to forget your friends or officemates and go on with your life not feeling anything. I just need to do it.

b. Imagine this, you open your whole YOU to someone. You give and give and give until there's nothing to give. You offer everything that you have for the people that you think cares about you. Maybe you have too much expectations from them but believe me, at one point you will get tired of giving. If not, then good for you. But always, always save something for yourself.

If they don't approach you, don't acknowledge your presence, don't say "thank you", or just effin' ignoring you...Remember, you don't always have to do the first move. Remember, they don't you anything & getting hurt by their actions and waiting for an apology in return won't make it okay. Just save yourself from unnecessary pain. You don't need to be warm to everyone all the time, no need to smile and offer a helping hand, no need to say good morning to everybody and be worried because nobody said hi-back to you...no need to do that all the time...you don't owe them anything.

I am human, I get hurt easily and I hurt people too. I am sorry for all of it. But it's time to move on, grow and grow and grow and aim for thoe unreachable goals, and then aim some more.

xoxo,
s.♥

Cleaned the blog and deleted posts mainly related to my past- person, things, moments, emotions (hate, love, angst, anxiety, etc.)

Haven't posted anything for 2015 related to my goals and priorities but what the heck.

I have 9 months left for this year and I want to make it worthwhile. Not only for me but for the people around me. I want to be the best version of me this year. That's for sure. I attempted to list down everything I want to start doing and improve something about me but I won't be able to write it anyway. HAHAHA Maybe I should stop procrastination. :P

xoxo, s.♥

Disclaimer: Originally written last year.

I am inlove and it's none of your business to know who the person is. Okay? Understand? :) Thanks.

xoxo,
s.♥