S FACTS.

1. The eX Factor

EX- sina-una, nakaraan, natapos, dati pa..

-         past, end, previous

I live in the past, yes, half of me. I can not untangle myself from my past and the past of others. I will get affected by everything, every person, every song or thing that was related to your past. Nakakaloka.

Based from what I see now, I am much better now but I am still that kind of person. Hindi ko na siguro talaga yun maalis.I don’t know how to erase it in my system. I know it’s not good and it’s not helping my relationship with other people, but I am really trying.

*sigh*

FOR YOU: I have you now and forever, right? Anxiety attack again.

2. If I say NO, it really means N-O..NO..

I rarely say yes, most of the time I say no.

Ayaw ko, ayaw ko talaga. Pag pinilit mo ako na halimabawa sumama sa iyo..goodluck sayo..imbyernahin kita the whole time or papalagpasin ko muna pero babawi ako ng bonggang bonggang bara para sa’yo.

Kaya umaayaw ako pag talagang ayaw ko kasi the tendency is I might be too obvious that I am not to enthusiastic to be with other people or to visit the place and I might say something wrong and other people will get offended. Iwas na sa away and misunderstanding.


xoxo,




s.

EX to the Nth Power

This is just what I felt months..and years ago..I just wanted to share it. :)

I have this weird thing happening to me in the past. It's like a sickness and it won't go away. I do not know how to stop this. I am inside this circle or the path I am taking is circular, and like what I

learned in Math before..A circle never ends. It keeps on running the same path and that's what I've been doing before. I've noticed this last 2006. But that time its something you can't control.



EX-BOYFRIEND.



When my ex-boyfriend went abroad in 2005 I couldn't get over it until last February 2009.

I was very guilty because I knew he only showed sincerity and friendship. But what the hell did I do? I entertained someone while we were "exclusively dating" and when we officially got together it's too late because he needed to be with his family abroad.



I know, it was an immature relationship but it doesn't follow that I didn't really care about him. I was the problem. I am very selfish.He left with his family and its something I couldn't control. What I am hoping is I should've done something good to him that made him happy and he won't be able to forget me.

I feel guilty at the time..and now I realized I can't do anything in the past anymore..Move on and forgive myself.

xoxo,

s.