PERFECT BALANCE.

CREDITS HERE

My Love Will Never Fail You - Marie Hines

I am good with words. I am good with how I use these words. I am good in how I convey these thoughts into words..how it is written and said. Maybe I am gifted with how I use these words..But I hope you will believe me in everything that I say. Remember these words will never be enough to make you feel what I really feel now because of you.

I was listening to the song posted above for more than an hour already. This is just one of the songs that makes me want to write here again. My heart is filled with gratitude, happiness, love and I know it is stronger than ever because you are here with me.

I don't really believe in chances or serendipity. We can always choose what we want to be, who we want to be with or even the people we want to be with and even the situations we are in. But I think what we have is a perfect balance of serendipity and the choices that we made months ago. And I am thankful it all happened this year. It is unexpected. It is beautiful. It is perfect for us.

Thank you. Thank you so much for the unconditional love you're showing to this little brat girl..Thank you for making me yours and for allowing me to call you my one and only.

As much as I want to share every bit of emotion I have now...I want to keep it to myself. You definitely know what my thoughts are..so don't get bothered. I will see you soon.

I love you so much.

xoxo,
s.♥

disclaimer: I haven't edited the post above. Free flowing thoughts on this one.:)

*credits to the owner of the photo*

Never settle for mediocrity, test your limits but always do your best and be open for new knowledge and experience. :) Posting this just because it's the start of another academic year for me while juggling work and personal life..Challenging? Yes, could be.. I am praying for patience and faith!

Never quit!

xoxo,
s.♥

SUMMER 2013

Beach trip? None. Who said that going to the beach is a requirement for having a happy summer? HAHAHA

Read three books for this summer? Wasn't able to finish one book!

Got enough rest and sleep? Uhmm. Next please.

Meet new friends? Yes.

New routine? Yes.

Finally meet your sister and nephew after 7 years PLUS a family reunion/mom's bday?YES.YES.

Meeting people who makes you smile and laugh and happy? Yes. Yes.

New point of view?Yes.

New experiences? Yes.

Travel? Yes.For work and only ONCE for leisure.

HAPPY? YES!


Dearest SUMMER 2013,

You will never, ever be forgottonen.

xoxo,
s.♥

"siguro kung boyfriend mo ako. proud ako na ikaw ang girlfriend ko..."

something to that effect. nakakamatay!!!! :D

xoxo,
s.♥

FIRST QUARTER 2013

I am thankful, blessed and I am still learning a lot from everyone.

As usual January- March were deadly. My schedule in the office (events, meetings, out of town projects, etc) and school was  insane but I am thanful for the experiences, learnings, failures and successes.

I finally got my grades and I am contented but I know I could have done better. But I am still congratulating myself for doing a better job than the previous semester. I have 15 units left before my comprehensive exam and thesis. Yes, it's easier to say these things but there will be a whole lot of work to do. :) I am not yet ready, I will hug the first sem this June with open arms but for now I will enjoy my vacation from school.

I got to travel for work in Mindanao for 8 days then to Vietnam. I am thankful for the learnings and experiences again. Irreplaceable. :)

Finally... today April 17, 2 months to go before my 25th birthday..and today I am happy. I am contented. I am pleased. I am thankful and most of all I am blessed. :)

I accept the fact that I do not know everything, that I cannot please everybody, that I have few but real friends and I am gaining new friends who can back me up anytime, I am still learning and looking up to people who is very willing to teach me, that I am very strict with myself and yes I have high standards and will never lower it down just to please anybody, that I will never be alone, that change is constant and I am gaining momentum and I'll be who I want to be someday..In the meantime I will enjoy everything and slow down this summer. I promise to read AND finish at least 3 good books :)

CREDITS HERE

xoxo,
s.♥

NOW OPEN

"Ganun pala yun, kapag nagka-gusto ka na ulit. Yung open ka na masaktan ulit.."

I cannot even say those words and when I heard it from someone my heart skipped for a second. I heard those words from someone who has been really hurt... Until now I cannot imagine saying it. Does liking, or really liking someone or even loving someone requires you to be open to pain again?

xoxo,
s.♥

2013: I am a FIGHTER!

I posted my dreams/goals/plans for 2013 here. Unfortunately I am thinking of cutting my hair really short, think EMMA WATSON. :)

I first heard the song THE FIGHTER on a video dedicated to the Ateneo Men's Basketball during their  (annual) bonfire at the Ateneo. Instant recall of course. I looked for the video over a month ago and I am watching/listening to it for the nth time already.

Here are my favorite lines:

Chorus
Give em hell, turn their heads
Gonna live life 'til we're dead.
Give me scars, give me pain
Then they'll say to me, say to me, say to me
There goes the fighter, there goes the fighter
Here comes the fighter
That's what they'll say to me, say to me, say to me,
This one's a fighter

This week was hell. First my story idea was rejected by my professor (Saturday), and two something happened at work (Monday-that's when I started to listen to this song again) then today I got the "best" message ever(Friday)! I do not know why this is happening since all came from different directions (school-work-personal). I felt searing pain this morning from reading the message. My ego was terribly bruised over the weekend and last Monday and I do not know if I even deserve this AT ALL. 

Don't get me wrong, I can still say 2012 has been the best year since 2008. :) Well there are just some little bumps along the way, but what happened this week was something I never expected (duh?). 

A month ago a friend told me, someone described me as a strong woman. Maybe I am. But for 2013, I promise I will be a fighter, I will be stronger, I will be VERY PATIENT, I will be a better person and I will try new things, broaden my horizons and be happy, contented and free! Yes, very idealistic but I will dream big, aim big and pray to God to help and guide me. Who's with me? Yes yes yes!

xoxo,
s.♥

EX to the Nth Power

This is just what I felt months..and years ago..I just wanted to share it. :)

I have this weird thing happening to me in the past. It's like a sickness and it won't go away. I do not know how to stop this. I am inside this circle or the path I am taking is circular, and like what I

learned in Math before..A circle never ends. It keeps on running the same path and that's what I've been doing before. I've noticed this last 2006. But that time its something you can't control.



EX-BOYFRIEND.



When my ex-boyfriend went abroad in 2005 I couldn't get over it until last February 2009.

I was very guilty because I knew he only showed sincerity and friendship. But what the hell did I do? I entertained someone while we were "exclusively dating" and when we officially got together it's too late because he needed to be with his family abroad.



I know, it was an immature relationship but it doesn't follow that I didn't really care about him. I was the problem. I am very selfish.He left with his family and its something I couldn't control. What I am hoping is I should've done something good to him that made him happy and he won't be able to forget me.

I feel guilty at the time..and now I realized I can't do anything in the past anymore..Move on and forgive myself.

xoxo,

s.