Remind, Reminder, Reminded.

What's happening now reminded me that I am blessed with a great set of family and friends outside this cruel environment I am in right now. Don't get me wrong, I love what I am doing at work very much. I learned a lot from my colleagues and bosses but there's no such thing as a perfect working environment because some misunderstanding(this I get) and gossips(this I don't) are bound to happen.

I am currently putting too much effort on telling myself that I NEED and MUST think of positive things. It's kinda hard to shut up and not stand up for myself because I chose not to confront the people involved but finally I've decided to talk to a person who was constantly sharing his thoughts about me. I am not sure if he will be honest enough to confirm or maybe tell his story, defend himself or just try to fool me with his jokes.

Minsan, wala lang mapagusapan, siguro the best topic na kami para sa kanila but damn ganun na ba ka-interesting ang buhay ko para sa inyo? Ganon talaga siguro but i am the type who wants something logical...So I can fully understand and forgive.

Going back to my first statement.... I've been smiling yesterday and during dinner time because there will be people who will make you smile and laugh (yes I was eating alone and I was laughing like a retarded seal), some were trying to set dinner dates, meet ups and will message you for no reason...Those people who are important in your life and who actually cares for you. I was reminded that those who matter will always be there for you, will kick you in the ass if needed, will adore and cuddle you, will be the constant reminder that you're blessed.

and yes, I used remind, reminder, reminded a LOT. LOL

All i have now is FAITH, that in this dark and dreary place...light will shine again.

s.♥

2014

First entry for this year!

I couldn't believe I didn't post anything last Dec31/Jan1! HAHAHA No plans for 2014? Nope. I just totally forgot! HAHAHA Aside from not having a strong internet connection in Isabela I actually traveled back to Manila on new year's day! HAHAHA

Mixed emotions when I left home. Mom went to Ilagan with me and Kuya to make sure I have my bus ticket back to Manila.

Few days later I got the biggest news for this year so far! :) Again, what's up? HAHAHA Work load has been so tight and heavy but thanks to ALL the angels, saints and to Jesus for keeping me sane enough to wake up each morning and facing all the tasks and people at work.

I think the word for this year really is: PATIENCE

Just celebrated something special last week! Yihheeee :) Feb-ibig it is! :) Now, back to your regular programming :)


xoxo, s.♥

I miss my college friends.

xoxo,
s.♥

PERFECT BALANCE.

CREDITS HERE

My Love Will Never Fail You - Marie Hines

I am good with words. I am good with how I use these words. I am good in how I convey these thoughts into words..how it is written and said. Maybe I am gifted with how I use these words..But I hope you will believe me in everything that I say. Remember these words will never be enough to make you feel what I really feel now because of you.

I was listening to the song posted above for more than an hour already. This is just one of the songs that makes me want to write here again. My heart is filled with gratitude, happiness, love and I know it is stronger than ever because you are here with me.

I don't really believe in chances or serendipity. We can always choose what we want to be, who we want to be with or even the people we want to be with and even the situations we are in. But I think what we have is a perfect balance of serendipity and the choices that we made months ago. And I am thankful it all happened this year. It is unexpected. It is beautiful. It is perfect for us.

Thank you. Thank you so much for the unconditional love you're showing to this little brat girl..Thank you for making me yours and for allowing me to call you my one and only.

As much as I want to share every bit of emotion I have now...I want to keep it to myself. You definitely know what my thoughts are..so don't get bothered. I will see you soon.

I love you so much.

xoxo,
s.♥

disclaimer: I haven't edited the post above. Free flowing thoughts on this one.:)

All Piled Up

The title of this blog entry fits all of thoughts I wanted to write... Beware. This post will be full...of BS. I need this.

1. I never liked people who doesn't appreciate what is given to them.
2. I never liked people who will just be nice to you just because you gave something to them. Fuck. Be genuine.
3. It is REALLY HARD for me to be "plastic" with other people. Mahirap siya gawin at hindi ko lubos maisip kung bakit para sa ibang tao ay napakadali nito.
4. Before you assume, there is this method called "ASKING"... I am not saying I NEVER ASSUMED ALL MY LIFE, but BS...I never, never ASSUMED someone liked me...tapos i-share sa iba. FU. Mixed signals? Why don't you ask me first?
5. Why can you be so manipulative?
........
so that's about it. full of BS and FU. :|

xoxo,
s.♥