What's happening now reminded me that I am blessed with a great set of family and friends outside this cruel environment I am in right now. Don't get me wrong, I love what I am doing at work very much. I learned a lot from my colleagues and bosses but there's no such thing as a perfect working environment because some misunderstanding(this I get) and gossips(this I don't) are bound to happen.
I am currently putting too much effort on telling myself that I NEED and MUST think of positive things. It's kinda hard to shut up and not stand up for myself because I chose not to confront the people involved but finally I've decided to talk to a person who was constantly sharing his thoughts about me. I am not sure if he will be honest enough to confirm or maybe tell his story, defend himself or just try to fool me with his jokes.
Minsan, wala lang mapagusapan, siguro the best topic na kami para sa kanila but damn ganun na ba ka-interesting ang buhay ko para sa inyo? Ganon talaga siguro but i am the type who wants something logical...So I can fully understand and forgive.
Going back to my first statement.... I've been smiling yesterday and during dinner time because there will be people who will make you smile and laugh (yes I was eating alone and I was laughing like a retarded seal), some were trying to set dinner dates, meet ups and will message you for no reason...Those people who are important in your life and who actually cares for you. I was reminded that those who matter will always be there for you, will kick you in the ass if needed, will adore and cuddle you, will be the constant reminder that you're blessed.
and yes, I used remind, reminder, reminded a LOT. LOL
All i have now is FAITH, that in this dark and dreary place...light will shine again.
s.♥
